April 6, 2014
Well, it’s taken four months but I’ve finally decided on what I will submit to Viable Paradise. It was a hard decision to come to. I have several things I could have submitted but when I looked at them in the cold light of day, measured them against what I hope to gain out of the workshop, I decided those projects weren’t where I wanted to focus.
I love them, of course! I’ll eventually get back to them but they don’t carry the fire I need. They are simply too stale and too caught up in nostalgia for me to be objective about them. If I’m fighting myself on them, the direction I need to go for the story to work versus the direction I want to go because I’m a ninny, it’s not healthy and I really need to back off of them for a bit and get a bit more perspective.
I’m under the gun now. I didn’t make the cut off for the first application fee. The drop dead deadline is June 15 so I have time, but I know myself well enough to know if I count on that, I’ll procrastinate until the last minute. I’m shooting for the next deadline of May 15 for the $35 app fee.
I am really hungry for this.
In other news, a few months back I happened on a post by Scott D. Southard, where he talked about “Five Things I’m Into Right Now”. That struck a chord with me. Since I like writing blogs but find I’m at a loss as to what to write (and not feel like I’m boring the pants off anyone who wonders by, I mean, how much can I talk about the puppy before it gets ooooold), it’s a neat format to use. It forces me to focus on things which is a huge problem for me right now.
So, I’m borrowing it from him. Thanks, Scott! I’m probably doing it wrong but, eh. Whatev. We’ll see how this goes.
Five Things I’m Into Right Now, April 2014 edition Read the rest of this entry »
January 21, 2014
Nope. Not gonna have them. I’m dreadful with resolutions. I’m even worse with resolutions than I am with goals.
Funny thing about goals. All the self-help gurus talk about getting an accountability partner, post your goals so it’ll hold you responsible or you’ll burn in the hell fires of embarrassment for not reaching your goals. They don’t work for me. I am not easily shamed or embarrassed so that sort of peer pressure falls dead at my feet after having bounced off my head a full velocity.
However, I have something I want. I want it more than I can give words to.
September 6, 2013
The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel. — Steve Furtick
I’ve been doing a lot of non writing reading and research. Productivity tips are my non-fiction bailiwick.
And my weakness.
….more like my kryptonite, actually.
In my trek across the vast internet landscape in search of The Perfect Time Management Technique (so far, nothing beats The Pomodoro Technique but I still try!), I bumble across a lot of different websites. Most are, of course, related to Time Management and Productivity. A few, though, rubbed peripherally against writing, my main passion.
One neatly dissects right across it.
I have a bucket list. In my bucket list I have all the things I’ve ever wanted to do, all cut out images and notes on separate pages to document how I will achieve them, what my progress is along the way and any sort of notes I come across in my drive to eventually see them done.
But a bucket list devoted entirely to writing?
I signed up for the free ebook and devoured it. The great majority I will be able to do. Some, I’ve already done. Some….really don’t apply to me at all but it’s seriously not an issue to replace with something else writing related that I’d like to do.
What does this have to do with productivity? I’m getting to that, I promise.
One of the things on the list:
34. Re-type your favorite novel.
Writers have heard about doing this particular thing, perhaps on a smaller basis of retyping a paragraph, scene or chapter. But this line item on the Writer’s Bucket List is to retype the whole thing.
I read it, looked at it sideways and shuffled around for weeks before giving up and diving in. I mean, I was stubbing my toe and procrastinating on everything else, what a perfect way to waste more time and hopefully gain some insight in a backward-falling way, right?
Well, yes and no.
I fail on the procrastination end. I have found that by doing my retype first thing in the morning (internet off! no email before I put in my 25 minutes — a neat intersection of procrastination and Pomodoro productivity), my mind is lubricated with more than just coffee and my fingers are now nimble from having shrugged off the veil of grogginess from having just woken up.
In the few weeks I’ve been doing this, and by ‘few weeks’ I really mean two, I have finished two short stories, one novella and made some headway into editing another longer short story.
I can’t even procrastinate right anymore. Or is it that I’m more productive with my procrastination? In any event, I’m sold on this particular tactic. What started out as me believing it really was a waste of time (I mean, how can I better my writing by retyping word for word someone else’s work?) and energy, has given me both.
Added bonus? I get to read one of my favorite novels all over again. Weeeee!
August 22, 2013
Something that has always managed to happen to me. It’s kind of freaky. I’m sure there’s a universal law relating to it, I’m not sure.
Here’s the pattern.
I spiral downward, fighting and clawing my entire way until I hit bottom.
I bounce for a bit before I get settled.
I start the long climb out.
I don’t get very far before I realize this is a long damn way to climb.
I make a post bitching about it.
My next hand hold to pull up, I emerge into sunlight.
It’s as if my bitching and complaining manages to spur something in me, in my life. No idea. Like jinxing myself but in a good way.
So. What happened? Read the rest of this entry »
August 21, 2013
Ink and paper are sometimes passionate lovers, oftentimes brother and sister, and occasionally mortal enemies. — Terri Guillemets
Re: today’s quote.
Oh yeah. OOOOOHHHH yeah.
I’m in the moral enemies stage right now
Recently, I’ve been on a productivity kick. The reason is pretty obvious, I wasn’t being very productive. In fact, I felt like most of the time I was just spinning my wheels. Sure, I was ‘doing stuff’ but that stuff I was doing wasn’t stuff that was serving me. It was a wildly waste of time by doing stuff in the most ineffecient way possible.
This, understandably, bothers me. I may be lazy but I’m not inefficient!
So for the past two months I’ve done a study of my daily routine and habits. And I uncovered a most regrettable thing. Read the rest of this entry »
June 18, 2013
If you want the world to take you seriously, first you have to take yourself seriously. You have to look at your blog as not just a blog but an opportunity to change the world.
And then you have to write as if the whole world is listening. — Jon Morrow
So many different things going on in my life, all of them pretty much ranking as First World Problems, so I won’t bore you with them.
The most pernicious was the complete lack of energy, drive, motivation, brainpower, direction…pick one, pick two and mix and match. It wasn’t there. None of them were.
Six months have passed and I’m starting to see the bright light at the end of the tunnel and I’m almost positive it’s not some train, so I’m able to travel with a little more speed and purpose. I hate when I suffer from depression and don’t realize it until it has passed. Only in looking in my rear view mirror do I realize what happened.
Now it’s daylight and I can see. Read the rest of this entry »
January 13, 2013
There is something about a new year. A clean slate. A slash-and-start-anew kind of feeling.
We make promises to ourselves and others. This year will be different! This year I will do all my XYZ on my list and I will be victorious!
For myself, I peter out around February. heh. Good intentions and all that.
Still, there are changes that need to come. I need to exercise more. I need to lose some weight. I’m not miserable and I’m not feeling all lumpy and useless. Changes need to happen, though, for my health, for my happiness. No one else can handle them but me.
I may peter out again, who knows. All I can do is try. They (the experts, whoever they are) say that it takes 21 days? 66 days? Let’s go with a happy medium and say 44 days to create a new habit. That’s 44 days of consistently doing something every day before it moves from the realm of ‘ZOMG I MUST THINK ON THIS OR I’LL NEVER REMEMBER’ to ‘cool, I can do it without much thought at all’.
That’s as good a starting place as anywhere, I think.
Thankfully, I know myself better than to try to do all these HUGE and MONUMENTAL changes all at once. Little steps, little things. And not taking on too much at one time.
One thing is clear. The holiday season, starting from the middle of November through the beginning of the New Year is absolutely the worst in the way of creativity. It’s absolutely the hardest time of the year for me to sit and get any writing done at all. Something I will be reflecting on as I move forward in the new year because it cannot continue. I don’t know if it’s having to adjust my schedule to accommodate, to create a new schedule or learning to draw boundaries, enforce them and stubbornly refuse to let anyone try to renegotiate where my lines rest.
I can assure myself on two vital facts. I will not join a gym and I will not go on a diet. Those two paths are sure, straight paths to failure for me. There are options, small things I can do, when reinforced into habit, which will translate into huge gains on the far end.
After some thought, I’m not going to continue with the ‘thirty days’ meme. The last two questions (because day thirty is ‘tag someone else to answer this’), to be honest, I can’t get excited about and I’m not going to inflict this on someone else either. What would there be for me to say other than ‘meh, no, not really’. Not riveting conversation and so, I leave it at twenty seven answered and draw a line through it as done. It seemed like a good idea at the time when I started it. Maybe later on down the road I will retool the questions to be more interesting and try again. Be the creator/originator of my own writer’s meme!
December 29, 2012
Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. — William James
We’re getting closer to the end of the year. Where did it go? I’ve lost some months in there so if anyone finds them, kindly send them back my way.
I spilled water on my Hello Kitty keyboard and now it won’t work. While this bums me out, it’s not a total loss. I rediscovered an old keyboard to use until I find a replacement and decided I may not replace it after all. It’s an old Dell keyboard from a now long-defunct Dell computer. I love this thing and I can’t really tell you why. It’s the key action, maybe? I like the way it feels and the way it sounds. Almost as soothing as typewriter sounds.
Learning to type on an IBM Selectric does that to an oldie-but-a-goodie like me. That’s something on my wish list. One day, I’ll own one again. Damn, I loved those machines.
It’s Day Twenty Six, dear God will this never eeeeend? Read the rest of this entry »
December 26, 2012
If a man intends to impress someone, his work will not be clear, because he does not intend clarity: he intends to impress. – S. Leonard Rubenstein
As per the above quote? Yeah, know a few people like that. Ol’ Leo there has it right. I feel like I’m at least half-way bright and hard to bore but if you’re making my eyes glaze over? Aim for clarity, plzkthnx.
Well, it’s official. Novembers and Decembers are the least productive months of my year. I get absolutely nothing done. I’m still exhausted from having spun my wheels, though. No idea where that energy has gone. Here it is, the 26th. Last time I remember it was the 11th. Big, fuzzy, hazy gray patch of memory and nothing to show for it.
Next year, I’ll set things up that I start to keep track of my time/activity and see where it’s going. It’s a little late now but I should be set for next year. Time analysis, yo.
Christmas was low key, as it usually is. My cousin and I went in together and bought my mom a 40″ television. It looked fabulous in the candlelight. How does it play? We have no idea. We sat down to watch a movie and the storm that blew through the south yesterday took out our power. We had it on long enough to look at the weather. Talk about timing.
Power finally came on again last night about 10 pm when we all had given up sitting in the dark commenting on how fabulous our TV looked in candlelight and went to bed.
Other than that, some nasty flu got in the house making the mother-unit sick to the point we considered hospitalization if she hadn’t gone to the doctor. It tried to take up with me but I think I caught it early enough to fight it back. Now I just have the tail-end congestion like cotton is packed in my sinuses instead of my brains sliding out of my nose. Going to make sleeping for the next few nights a real pleasure.
I suspect that is were a great deal of my time went. At least for the month of December.
Puppy and kitten and elderly matron dog are still humming right along. Puppy got the last of her puppy shots, kitten is next up on the roster for a vet visit and soon to see about some test for the elderly matron that explains her porking out and her frequent need to go to the bathroom.
Speaking of pets, time for Day Twenty Five! Read the rest of this entry »
December 11, 2012
Day Twenty Four of Thirty (nonconsecutive) Days of Writing the OMG WHAT WERE YOU DOING THIS ENTIRE TIME edition
Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. – Calvin Coolidge
Y HALLO THAR WORDPRESS.
Long time no see. AGAIN!
*blows the dust off and throws open the windows to let the fresh air in*
So much has happened and yet not. Not even sure where to begin.
On top of having a kitten, we have a puppy. Long story. The short of it is: Went on a vacation to visit brother, see my twin nieces and admire how wonderful they really are, meet the newest niece. Ended up with a puppy.
Elderly dog is still elderly and now she’s contending with two youngsters, not one. So is the owner (me) and on top of that, trying to get everyone accustomed to each other and the rhythm of the household to include housetraining the puppy so that I wasn’t cleaning up puddles of pee and piles of poo every hour.
It was distracting (along with the Incredible Power Of The Cute) to have to chase behind a puppy when things got quiet (too quiet), constantly hunt down accidents in the house, trying to anticipate when we needed to go out. I got nothing done on the writing front. Stayed caught up with AbsoluteWrite forums so that I didn’t feel like I was living in a cave with no outside contact EVER.
Not to mention the kitten and the puppy are the biggest buddies in the whole world and play all over everything and everyone. Nothing and no one was safe. Now I was chasing after two animal youngsters and still trying to keep them from playing on top of Lucy the Elder.
The puppy is, for the most part, housebroken, or at least to the point that about every hour or so she lets me know when she needs to go out to pee. Still a distraction but one I can anticipate now and so I can get back to the business of writing.
Along other lines, I had a desktop computer I was attempting to revive. It was having issues that no one techsavvy I’ve taken it to can seem to resolve. It appeared to only happen when I’m around. When there are other witnesses, it behaved. That left me to my own limited tech-knowledge devices to figure it out. I need my desktop, and thus another time and energy sink.
I did, however, get it running. The sad thing? I have no idea what I did. It works, so I suppose I shouldn’t look to hard at the gift given to me by the Benevolent Universe.
That’s not all that has been going on but it has been the biggest chunk of my mental energy. As I have a low energy state to begin with? Tends to take me down pretty fast. I’m envious of those who have children and spouses and still manage to keep a house, a fulltime job, spend time with their family. They are the champions. I just do the best I can.
That’s why there’s been no update until now. Everything seems to be settling down and I can shift my priorities back to writing first. I lost my momentum and it’s taken me this long to get it back. Here’s hoping I can keep it up.
So for better or worse, here I am with today’s Day Twenty Four, a month-plus later. Good thing I changed the subject line to nonconsecutive. Whew. Read the rest of this entry »